to feel the unconditional love I once felt. I’ve paid my karmatic dues for breaking the one man who loved me unconditionally’s heart. So come on Universe throw me a fn bone! For the love of Unicorns send me a man that I find attractive, a man gentle and kind to me, a man that knows please me like no other, a man that gets hard just by looking at me, a man who will love me as unconditionally as I will him, a man that will not leave for no reason, a man to share my forever with. I’m ready.
I feel like I’m standing in the center of a crowded room screaming at the top of my lungs and no one can hear me. Depression sucks ass. Especially when everyone around you thinks you’re always so happy and that you have your shit together. When in all reality you’re struggling to keep your bills paid and that smile on your face. Your friends and family members turn to you left and right asking how you do it, how you remain so upbeat and positive but little do they know you’re crying uncontrollably inside. All you ever want is to be happy and loved and to many on the outside you are just that happy and loved but inside you’re just sad and alone. I hope that some day I will truly be able to shake this life long monkey from my back but I fear he’ll just cling on forever more.